umwhat?

So, I think a certain someone I talk about a lot and lives out of state may be ignoring me.  We'll see what happens -- I sent him a text telling him I had big news and all that shizz because, well, look at the last entry.  No response.

I then see him online on a site we both frequent.  I know he's home.

I'm being neurotic and I need to quit it.  I'm going to call him tomorrow like I said I would and see if I get bumped to voicemail.  Then, it'll be time for me to just let it all pour out since, you know, I'm now on the "fuck you" button.

Dear Life,

Why must I make you way more difficult and complicated than you need to be?  Why can't I just accept things as they are and not neurotically over-analyze every little thing that happens?

Love, James

I feel like I'm taking 3 steps forward 2 steps back in my life at the current moment.  Progress, but backsliding, too.

I'm so all over the place and I need to chill the fuck out.